I lost everything and anything I had yesterday. I lost it all and I DON'T CARE LOL! I've officially went insane and I deserve to be in a mental institution. I can't believe I talk to people I wouldn't talk to ever again. Me and Jamie got into a huge fight last night and I broke up with her today. I heard the words "I dont care if you have to eat and sleep anymore" and I went psycho saying "You don't care!? You don't care?!" Well, I really didnt care anymore and I didn't need her nor did I need any girl I went out with. "Girls are like candy corn, They look good on the outside, but on the inside, they're shit. Well, I'm done ranting for today and I will go insane again tomorrow again I bet!

"Knives"

Hello everyone.

I'm back once more and I thought, since I was on myspace everyday, why not be on xanga everyday too? So, I'm back. So I'm going to start with why my life is so messed up.

No more games. I am not playing anymore. I can't trust anybody with my heart and my feelings anymore. I vow no more for me. I'm not getting hurt by anyone else. Yeah, I can play it off like I'm not hurt, but I am melting on the inside. I am burning. I am going insane thinking about how I used to love someone and here they are being bitches beyond reason. They are talking behind my back, or they are going out getting drugged, or they are going out cheating on you having sex with a guy I don't know (hmm, I wonder who that could be?) No more. I don't need any girl. I should have focused on myself from the beginning and I wouldn't be in this mess. Well, Fuck it all, I've stopped caring long ago. Everything can go to hell for all I care. I'm not just Kiel anymore...I'm heartless now, and anyone who thought they could get through to me on things like this can no longer do so. I don't care anymore. Those who play with sharp objects get cut. My friends out of school call me Knives, and make me mad, and I'll stab your ass where it hurts. In the heart. It may not be physically, but hurting people is something I can now be good at.

As you can see, I am severely troubled. Love would do such a thing to you. Don't get attached. You only make life harder for those around you and maybe yourself. In my case, however, I would enjoy getting back at those backstabbing bitches. It would actually be exciting lol. I guess I've been hurt too many times and I've just finally cracked. Yes, that would be accurate. I'M DONE TAKING SHIT AND IT'S OVER FOR ANYONE WHO THINKS THEY CAN USE ME! Yep, I've lost it...

Kiel  A.K.A. "Knives"